It rained that morning

Monday, 19th September:

Sad day. Called home and mom was not in a good mood. I spent the day thinking about what might have been. I thought I might cry after a long time. Couldn't.

Thursday, 22nd September:

The day began so nicely. I had breakfast with A and then I went back to the room to sleep. I returned to the office at 10, only to find the boss walking up and down the corridor. Bad News. My report came back without being evaluated. I got these terrible anxiety pangs. Why? Was it bad? Is my work not good? Maybe I do horrible stuff. I am a failure. Surprise! Boss acted like an angel and kept me afloat.

In the evening went for a long walk with Z. Talk, talk, talk, ice cream and more talk. Z is either being very patient with me (bless her) or she loves the sound of my voice (is that so hard to believe? *stifled laughter*). Mom called in between the walk. Did not, or rather could not give her the bad news from work. After a lovely evening, came back to room and called up D.

D is an old school friend. Had promised her I'd call on Thursday. Chatted for an hour! Eeeeks... my cellphone reserves went down by Rs. 200. I've known D for like ever. It feels nice so to let your hair down every once in a while (not that I have much hair to let down but that's beside the point). Talked the usual marriage-girlfriend-career stuff with her. The thing is she is as scared about the whole deal as I am... so it is comforting. As soon as the phone got over, I felt miserable again. Sigh!

Friday, 23rd September:

The day was half here and half there. I was busy since morning trying to find new people to evaluate my work. Amidst feeling miserable and being busy, managed to wish two old friends Happy B'day! Had Spanish class in the evening. Cute Spanish teach asked me to translate a huge sentence on the blackboard. And what do you know! I did a perfect 10. When she said, "very good", I was getting all moony eyed. Just then, Y whispered into my ears, "Seen her engagement ring. It has eight diamonds." Why! Why of all the ten thousand blue blistering barnacles! Simple dinner, and a ice cream at midnight with Y and I was still feeling miserable. Thought about someone, and then felt even worse. Trust S to be a dear in such situations. He gave me a movie to watch. If you haven't seen Chitty, Chitty, Bang, Bang, its entirely your loss. Such a wonderful, mood-uplifting movie. Why if I had been Caractacus Potts - I would have fallen for Ms. Truly Scrumptious too! Went to sleep misty eyed.

Saturday, 24th September:

I had forgotten how much I liked the rain. In the morning when I was returning to my room, walking back after breakfast with S, it started drizzling. The first impulse I had was to run. Then something in me asked me not to. So, I just decided to take a stroll. And oh was it lovely. I was being my grumpy self in the morning, when the rain started and invited me to play. I was angry! I even raised my head skywards to shout at Him. Couldn't. All that came to my head was a big "Thank You." "Thank you for I am still standing on my feet. After all that has happened I am still standing. Thank you for giving me the strength to move on, always." After that, I strolled back slowly, romancing the flirting rain, as it fell from the clear blues.

It trickled down my oily face, after barely getting lost in my receding hairline and slipping on my spectacles. It caressed my skin and ran down my chest like her hands from my dreams. It found all the nooks and corners on my body which had shrunk into dark corners and made them wonderfully wet. It made the most thoroughly enjoyable squelching sound under my sandals. It cleansed me. After a bath and a quick ride home, I got home. I still could not tell mum and dad about the thing at work. They will worry. I do not want that. Chatted through the evening and wrote long, crazy emails.

Sunday, 25th September:

Spent the morning fighting with the downstairs neighbours about a leaking pipe. The new owner of the ground floor flat looks like King Kong! Eeeew! Got car diagnosed - battery is down. Dad will have to get it replaced during the week. Sis 'n family came over in the evening. Spent a lazy afternoon talking nonsense with funny nephew. Now the TV has gone bad. I am feeling a tad ok. Tomorrow it is back to work. Oh n I have to write an essay on `¿Por qué quiero estudiar Español?' Help!